I will admit that I was running on pure adrenaline yesterday, so if my post seemed long and fast-paced, I need not apologize since it was my adrenaline speaking!
But in talking with Mum and dad over breakfast this morning, I had come up with an idea last night that I just had to bounce off of them and get their opinion.
“What if I were to ask a few Mums and dads to possibly lend a hand with our production?” I asked.
“Parental involvement is always a good idea in any extracurricular school activity, Amar.” Dad said. “What exactly do you have in mind?”
“For now, probably measuring, sewing, and fitting costumes as well as helping with makeup from the Mums.” I suggested.
“Shayne probably prefers to do his own lipstick and eyelashes,” Erik sang, before he said “OW!” as I kicked him under the table and glared at him.
“That was unfair and uncalled for, little buddy!” I growled as dad agreed.
“Sorry,” Erik mumbled.
“Then I’m thinking the dads could lend a hand on the heavier things,” I continued. “Such as helping us bring everything from storage in the basement up to the backstage area, hanging overhead lights on the stage, and getting the light and sound board set up. All this would happen, of course, once all my crew heads have their helpers lined up.”
“Don’t worry about me! I’ll be in my greenhouse!” Erik grunted, pushing his chair back and running upstairs.
I let out a sigh as I looked at Mum and dad before scooting my chair out. “I’ll have a talk with him.” I said, heading upstairs.
“What’s wrong, little buddy?” I asked as I walked into his loo while he was brushing his teeth.

“Nuffing, weefe me awome!” He said with a mouth full of foam before he spit it out in his sink. “Nothing’s wrong. Leave me alone!”
“Erik, I was going to ask you if. . .”
“Leave me alone, Amar!” He growled as tears filled his eyes and he pushed past me and stormed down the steps.
I heard Mum and dad calling to him as I ran down after him, but the front door had already slammed, and he was gone, and I just sighed and hung my head.
“Let Erik cool off a bit before you have a talk with him.” Dad said calmly.
“He’s jealous of me, isn’t he, dad?” I said, feeling the tears well in my eyes.
“No, Son, Erik’s not jealous.” Dad hugged me. “He’s got almost as much going on as you do. I just think he’s feeling a little left out, that’s all.”
“I was going to tell him I have an important job for him with the play, but I never got the chance to say it, dad.” I said.
“Go brush your teeth before you’re late catching the tram, Amar.” Dad said. “I know you will find the right place and time to tell your brother what you have in mind for him.”
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There was a light rain falling as I headed to the tram stop, but Erik wasn’t there, so I was certain he had run a few blocks to catch a different tram.
When I got to school, I went right to Erik’s Base class. His tote, still unpacked, was sitting at his Station, but he was nowhere about.
“Where’s Erik?” I asked Parker.
“I don’t know, Amar.” Parker said. “He looked a little upset when he put his tote down, but he didn’t say anything and just left. Maybe he had to go to the loo or something.”
“Thanks, Parker.” I said, heading out to the nearest loo.
There were a few other lads there, but Erik wasn’t there, so I went to my Base and dropped my tote at my Station.
“You look troubled, Love.” Ben said. “What’s wrong?”
“Erik’s the one who’s a little troubled, Ben.” I said as chimes sounded. “I need to find him and talk to him.”
So as we headed to Chapel, I asked Parker if Erik came back and he shook his head that he didn’t. “I’ll catch up to you later, Ben.” I said, stopping and walking in the opposite direction as everyone else filed into Chapel.
In a few more minutes, the empty halls were dead quiet as the soft organ music echoed from the distant Chapel. And I don’t know how I came to the conclusion, but I suddenly figured out just where Erik might be, so I headed to the Commons Room.
When I entered the dim room, sure enough, I spotted Erik. He was sitting smack in the middle of the stage with his head down as he hugged his knees.

“Hey, little buddy,” I whispered as I approached the stage.
“Hey, Amar,” He whispered back, not looking up.
I walked around to the stairs on the side of the stage, and then moved across to sit down next to him.
“Want to talk about what you’re feeling?” I whispered, putting my arm around his shoulders as he leaned into me.
“I want to audition and be in the play, Amar,” He cried quietly. “But I can’t do both the play and run the Garden Club at the same time. So I’ve been thinking that if I got a part in the play, I’d have to quit Garden Club, and I don’t want to do that. Being in the play and doing rehearsals just wouldn’t work out for me.”
“It’s smart that you thought about all that, Erik.” I said, hugging him into me. “It was like I told you before that you have to think of your priorities, and I see that you have.”
“But I’ll miss all the fun that everyone will have.” Erik sniffed. “I just wish there was a way it could work out, is all.”
“I was going to tell you something important this morning that I wanted you to do, little buddy.” I said. “But you ran out before I could say it.”
He looked at me with his red, tear-filled eyes. “What were you going to tell me, Amar?”
“Well, now that we’re here at school, I might as well just show you instead of tell you.” I said standing up and helping him to his feet.
“Where are we going; to Chapel?” He asked as he followed me.
“No, Erik,” I said. “We’re going to miss Chapel today. We have a mission to accomplish.”

It was the first time Erik was in the freight elevator, and he was quite excited at the slow, rumbling, whirring ride! It was also the first time Erik had been in the basement, since it was “off limits” to students without permission – or who didn’t have a legitimate reason for being down there. I will say that Erik and I had a reason!
“It’s so big down here, Amar!” Erik said, his voice echoing off the concrete walls. “Someone could well get lost here! But where are we going and why are we here?”
“This is where we’re going, Erik.” I said as we stopped in front of the double metal doors marked 8-b. “And I’ll tell you why we’re here in a minute.” I added, taking the key from my pocket and unlocking the door before switching on the light.
“You have a key?” Erik gasped. “And what’s all THIS?”
“This was what I was going to tell you this morning before you stormed out of the house, little buddy.” I said, slowly pulling the black tarp off the large spotlight as Erik’s eyes and mouth widened.

“Wow,” He barely whispered.
“I need someone to run the follow spotlight for the play.” I smirked at him as he ran his hands over the black surface of the huge spot. “You wouldn’t have to be at rehearsals until the very last week, so you wouldn’t have to sacrifice but one or two of your Garden Club meetings, AND you could be involved in the play and the performance.”
Happy tears had welled up in Erik’s eyes and were streaming down his cheeks as he gave me a hug. “You’re the best big brother in the whole world, Amar!”
“And guess what else you get to do running the spot, little buddy?” I said, going to one of the many boxes and pulling out a box with headphones in it. “You’ll be communicating with Carl, the stage manager, during the entire show. He will be following the script from back stage with all the light cues on them, so you’ll need to wear a set of headphones with a mike to talk to each other since you will be all the way in the back of the Commons Room on a tall riser with your big spotlight!”

Erik put on the headphones and let out a long squeal that rang and echoed through the room like a fire alarm going off! Then he gave me the biggest hug and kiss I’d gotten from him in a while!
After covering the spot, and putting the headphones back in the box, we locked up the room and then headed back upstairs just as Chapel was letting out.
“I’m sorry I acted like a prat this morning, Amar.” Erik said. “I just didn’t want to be left out of the first school play, is all – especially with you as Director.”
“That’s OK, little buddy.” I said. “I wasn’t planning on leaving you out. But do me a favour next time, OK? Before you over react, let the other person explain things first. Things may go in your favour before you even realize it.”
“I promise, Amar.” Erik said, as we gave each other another hug before heading to our Bases.
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So other than the Erik dilemma this morning, it was pretty much a breather day with not much else happening. Oh sure, Shayne and Lars were giddy as ever with the impending auditions, and there also seemed to be a little excitement with some of the other lads as well. I think I saw at least 15 scripts in the hands of lads, and even a couple of them were saying lines back and forth during lunch and such as they prepared for auditions tomorrow.
We had a grand scrimmage in Gyms today, and call me bias; but I am certain Ben’s Badgers were by far the better basketball team over the other 5 teams!

During final period, I was in the quiet of a Study Chamber alone where I could prepare partial pages of the script for those auditioning. Depending on how many auditioned, I planned to have individuals read as well as groups of 2 or more read together so I knew how they would interact with each other. That would give me a broader view of who I should cast in certain roles, if they would be cast at all.
But my hope was to use everyone, if the numbers weren’t too large. There might be a load of “extras”, but at least everyone who auditioned would have a chance to be on stage; if in a lead role, a minor role, or just saying one line and mingling in as “townspeople”.
I also knew there would be some amount of disappointment when several tried out for the lead roles, and I hoped I could be fair to everyone by giving them hope for the next play or the next. I would want them to know they could try again and not give up just because they lost out on the role they wanted their first time around.
Sigh, that’s my Amar dilemma.